By this point, I had broken down. With everything going on in our lives, I no longer had control and I felt as if I hit rock bottom. I didn’t know what to do or where to turn. I knew that with Logan needing surgery, I needed more support from a faith perspective. I was working in my studio and I decided I needed to listen to Christian music and the song “Joy” by For King and Country came on and it resonated so much with me. With everything going on, I could choose Joy.
My husband and I tried a couple different church options to find a church community for support. We were invited to an inter-denominational church by some friends that was held in a community center. Our first service was the Sunday before Easter. I wanted to go to a service that was a normal service and not a holiday service. It was just the message we needed to hear.
The message was about the Bronze Snake from Numbers 21:4-9
4 They traveled from Mount Hor along the route to the Red Sea, to go around Edom. But the people grew impatient on the way; 5 they spoke against God and against Moses, and said, “Why have you brought us up out of Egypt to die in the wilderness? There is no bread! There is no water! And we detest this miserable food!” 6 Then the LORD sent venomous snakes among them; they bit the people and many Israelites died. 7 The people came to Moses and said, “We sinned when we spoke against the LORD and against you. Pray that the LORD will take the snakes away from us.” So Moses prayed for the people. 8 The LORD said to Moses, “Make a snake and put it up on a pole; anyone who is bitten can look at it and live.” 9 So Moses made a bronze snake and put it up on a pole. Then when anyone was bitten by a snake and looked at the bronze snake, they lived.
They referenced that we have sinned and we have sorrow and when we look at the cross that Jesus died on that we will be saved. They had two large crosses standing in church that day and they asked people to come up to the cross and write their burdens on a piece of paper and nail it to the cross.
It was such a pivotal message and seeing the congregation go up and act on this. Since this was our first service, we sat back and watched. However, at the end of the service, Nathan said that we should write down Fibrous Dysplasia on a piece of paper and nail it to the cross. This was the first time that I’ve ever done something like this and physically nailing it to the cross felt like a true surrender of the burden we were carrying. We felt relieved to be able to hand it over to Jesus to carry this burden for us now.
Logan’s Surgery was June 11, 2019